happy new year

blogging from my phone, therefore it may seems a little untidy and full of spelling mistakes. I was recalling where did i spent my new year eves for the past years. I think three years ago, i was still in scdf. I had a big fire or not exactly that big. It was a one unit three room flat house. I remember i recused a dog out of that unit that day, not too much details as it is classfied. One year later, i was in perth watching fire works. My plane was landing into perth airport. It was a very beautiful night as i was a new cabin crew. Everything was new and fresh. Air crew, flight attendant, traveling. I was having the time of my life. The year after, i was in cairns, listening to black eyed pea, i gotta feeling at novotel hotel watching the fireworks display having a room party with my fellow colleagues. Carefree life as i always had. No worries, no trouble. Earn two k spend two k. anything else, i know friends are there. My family are there, my love one is there. Taking life for granted.

Downfall came. When i repeat my mistakes and mistakes again. That's when i plurged into depression. No one will pretty much understand what i went through. The hardest part was maybe to seek people understanding. It was the toughest period in my life. Even my job, i could not handle it. Had to quit it. I tried to seek it. End up i try to run away from it. I wished there are many things i did not do and wish i did. Months and months of torturing myself. Mentally. Finally i see the lights.

Taking the past as a good lesson. Instead of dragging it on.

Happy 2010!